Bitterness is a tough pill to swallow.
But it's difficult to know the line between bitterness and jealousy...it's so fine at times.
But I see others spending money left and right, and I feel bitterness.
Towards what, or whom, I do not know.
So perhaps it is jealousy.
Jealousy that we still struggle financially.
That we can't pull together enough money for a downpayment on this house. And bitterness that our credit is so bad that we can't get a normal mortgage.
Yeah...that's not anyone's fault, but I still feel this edge of bitterness deep in my throat.
Sometimes it rears its ugly head and I feel...exhausted.